agghhh!! nyi's gone(thanks darling for the early morning wake up call, so much appreciated) after calling me and whinging that he's at the airport alone. i love him, but not so much to go there and be with me. i'm evil. i just spent the entire night with him 2 days ago. he's so spoilt. he really should learn that some girls need their beauty sleep. anyways, i'm breaking out in pimples. like this whole load of them started sprouting out of my face, it looks so hideous, i am not even motivated to go out. anyways, without nyi, pretty much my life is in dire straits. so pretty much for the next month or so, it would be hanging out with the girls, watching tv, work, work, work, and maybe find someone to fix my lights, although didi suggested we go for the gothic atmosphere(using candles, and probably burning the house in the process). anyways, nothing much has been happening. just waiting for gail to pass me my macs(totally addicted to filet o fish and apple pie). i need to sleep in order to get up early tomorrow to go to work.

tejjy better call before he goes off. AAGGHHH!!! i miss nyi already..


:(

ps: and luke is going off tomorrow. aaaghh..really someone should shoot me. i'll be so lonely this holidays!

just got back from nyi's. overall today was an adventure for me. other than the fact nyi went on 250km/hr on the freeway which nearly sent me to a cardiac arrest, the night was pretty fun with loads of laughter, teasing, drinking and catching up before we all go our separate ways. wells actually, only tejjy, nyi and i will be leaving. tejjy will be doing a course with southern cross uni and i will go on to the joondalup campus, nyi will be going up to curtin and the rest will be in ecu. nevertheless, we made a pact to meet up at least once a month to catch up on all the goss. i can't believe holidays are starting. exams have never been more hard, but i reckon, a credit would be fine. anyways, couldn't resist a camwhore session with my favourite people in perth. wouldn't be there without them. prior to the drinking session, tejjy and i caught up at a gelare and ate there(waffles were for half price!!) and we sat there and watch the world go by till nyi called us to make sure we'll be going over to his place. anyways just talking to tejjy and realizing how much he has grown over the year i've known, made me proud to say, he has matured! and i can never be more proud for him. i love you tejwinder singh!

anyways, just a few pics of our gab-drinkfest at nyi's crib(alll the way in murdoch!!)


where would i be without them?



the maniacs


karen and tejjy



and i love him so, even when he speeds at 250km/hr with me in the front seat with him, yup, i still love him.



my crazy crazy drunkard(look at tejjy! he's practically overpowering them! he's like the eiffel tower!!)



honda sports(josh), mitsubishi lancer sports(isk's) and honda civic sports(silver, nyi's)


couldn't resist a camwhoring moment



darling texting away to his friends in burma! he's going back in 2 days!!


words can't express how much i care for them both



my boys chattering away in the kitchen


:)

with tomorrow's exam, i'll go into the gym with the best of luck and god's blessing because something tells me i might end up screwing it up. i didn't mug or burn any midnight oil, but instead, i prayed, i prayed like there was no tomorrow. i'm always so religious when i need a favour from god. i really should stop doing it. lol. but anyways, after this shit, i work full time till uni starts in march! BLEAGH!!

countdown till rach comes down: 20 days

extremely thrilled! can't wait :)

xoxo

the empty bed, the broken heart, the uncontrollable tears, the mixture of feelings and emotions, the oppressive days i endured. 2 weeks and still counting since the presence of my sister vanished into thin air. it has not been a bed of roses, no doubt, but the decisions that came to an end were overwhelming. the wall, that used to be my protection to shield me from the vulnerability from the world has dissappeared. the feelings are still raw. the decisions are fresh and if she did come back, i'll only embrace her with open arms. letting go is hard. the decisions made are hard too. if its meant to be, its meant to be.

i miss my sister.


Sally Owens: [cuts her hand] My Blood.
[cuts Gillian's hand]
Sally Owens: Your Blood.
[smacks their hands together]
Sally Owens: *Our* Blood.
-excerpt from Practical Magic, 1998- Sally Owens and Gillian Owens

going thru first year of uni was the best! i'm telling u, summer school has just started, had my first test and i scored full marks. WHAT A WAY TO USHER IN THE NEW YEAR! i just hope this year would go by breezily and smooth sailing. no bumpy roads, thank you very much.

ok. starters. today, 40 degrees. all i want to do is put on my bikini and jump into my sister's pool. but on second thoughts, maybe i should jump in naked. its that hot, so much so, the airconditioner has been turned on(to the lowest temperature only making it the coldest house in WESTER AUSTRALIA)and i am DEFINITELY, POSITIVELY DEFINITELY GETTING AN AIRCOOLER! yes i know it cost a bomb but i'm stifling in my room- restless, sleepy and definitely on the heat! i need to definitely get an aircooler, to get my beauty sleep. without the pool, i've been having long ice cold showers(i'm quite terrified to see my next water bill). but don't worry to all you pool-less people(that includes me), jessiepoop is definitely getting a pool this weekend (or i'll be permanent resident at gail's place!).



secondly, i had a brief preview of how my textbook looks like. so i browses thru my booklist, to my dismay, one of the book cost $400(brand new) and second hand would cost about 100 dollars less(meaning, terrible condition). so i've decided to be a cheapskate, and reserve the book in the library. and guess how thick it is? 4000 pages! my god, i thought it was a bible. (if i did buy that book, i will keep it like a bible!) man, that book is so heavy, i'm scared to get a slipdisc or worse, hernia if carrying it. looks like i dont have to pay 80 bucks for gym anymore. all i have to do is to deliberately go late to class(my psychosocial science) and on that day, i'll run from home to lecture with that heavy textbook. will definitely develop some serious muscles(watch out HULK!!). i tell you, i'll definitely lose 4kgs at the end of the day. wahwee! can't wait for uni to start(notice hint of sarcasm!).

anyways, might post up photos of gail's chateau. yess, lazy jess is getting off her feet to be more productive. this was taken on saturday and sunday! di, prince and i were so eager to see my sister's new chateau and as the french would say "magnificat!". it was beautiful. 4 bedrooms plus a kitchen and 2 sets of living room, 2 backyards, a sauna, a jacuzzi in my sister's toilet, a sauna and a pool with a water feature. i tell you, when she told me i can come stay over anytime, i thought i died and went to heaven. its a bit far from where i'm staying at the moment. i just can't wait when rach comes here, gail you watch out, cos we'll be regular visitors. anyways, let the pics tell the story of the house. whilst there on sat, the whole pacheco clan came, jose's parents and nieces came over for a swim and barbie(bbq). i love spanish bbq, seriously! i love it, hands down! i have to give credit to Mr Pacheco for his masterful skill in roasting the meat to my taste (well done!) and Mrs Pacheco for her delicious spanish flan(caramel custard cake!). i tell you denise and i went home that night contented and glad that we starved that whole afternoon. prince stayed overnight and i reckoned he loved it, cos jose's nieces stayed the night too! anyways, i shall stop talking!!




gail and her lil niece jassy (notice dora! ever since she introduced me to dora, i've been hooked on to them!)


gail's peeved with me because i've been asking her to get for me 6 cans of lemonade(that was how thirsty i was after eating 2 filet o fish meals)



the first round of dinner. dezzy,hiacin, jazzy and princey! the adults had to wait, so whilst the kids were having dinner, di and i decided to sit by the pool and have a glass of wine and she had a ciggie. coolness.


my 2 fave girls and my baby boy!- hiacin,jazzy and my babi-boo prince



denise and angie(gail's sister in law who came to pick the kids up that day) leisurely reading kmart and coles catalogues respectively!


gail was telling jazzy to lay off my chocolate milkshake. but too bad, i let that kid took too much of that shake. heard she was sick the next day. i'm such a bad aunt. lol


prince, when surrounded by three beautiful girls, couldn't resist a tummy rub! i love my babi-boo!


everybody meet pace(pronounced as patch!) gail and jose's lil baby!


meet my baby, princey-poo!


now i know why prince was not too excited about leaving the place. look at this backyard! its so big, prince went bananas there!


the evening sky at landsdale, gail and jose's chateau. spectacular~

gotta rush! meetin darling luke at grand cinemas to watch 27dresses.

loves all~

if there's one word to surmise how i feel right now, it would be exasperation. honestly, i feel like i've been hit rock bottom. i can say i'm still in a complete state of shock and bewilderment. i'm just waiting for the truth to unfold to reveal itself.i'm just waiting for it sink in so i will be able to find an alternative solution instead of staring at the hard facts smacked right in front of me. and sometimes i wonder, do i really deserve all this unnecessary predicament? i really should include self pity to my list of emotions, since i've yet to feel like this since forever. everyone beckoned, and now, in complete darkness, i stand on my own, wondering, will i ever see the bright light at the end of the tunnel????

only god knows.

will post up pics of gail's house soon, but i'm in no mood to do it now. so au revoir.